Have you ever felt lost?
Odds are good your answer is yes. Life sometimes becomes difficult to navigate. There are many, if not infinite, paths in front of you and it's hard to understand where you should step next. You become discouraged and confused, and soon you find yourself in a rut.
I hate ruts. Especially when I get in one that I can't seem to get out of.
The past few days, I have been in one such rut.
I became uncertain about what I was doing with my life, discouraged at how things seemed to be in my life at the moment, and frustrated at all I didn't know.
I was lost.
Or was I?
Thankfully, when my eyes lose sight of who I am or where I'm going, God sends me people to remind me. Through the kind words and actions of many, I was able to get out of my rut and am now looking forward with hope and faith instead of doubt and frustration.
Did I figure out everything I didn't know?
Do I understand exactly what I'm doing now?
Have my circumstances altered dramatically for the better?
Heck no.
But I was reminded that:
1) I have so many blessings.
Seriously so many. I have a family, a home, a great school, amazing friends, the chance to do what I love every day. Life at any given moment is much more likely to be fantastic than otherwise.
2) I do know some things.
I have some ideas, however indistinct, of what I want to do and who I want to be. I know I eventually want to marry in the temple and become a mother. I know I want to teach dance and help young women see themselves and others in a positive light. I know I want to eat ice cream. Do I know specifics on how any of these will work out? No (with the exception of the ice cream). But I know that these are things I'm working toward.
3) I have a Heavenly Father who has a plan for me.
Even if that plan makes no sense to me from where I'm standing, I know it will ultimately lead me to becoming my best self. Hailey, one of the many angels who helped me over the last few days, said that our lives are like a cross-stitch: God sees the top side and we see the underside.
Have you ever seen the underside of a cross-stitch?
Yep. Looks like my life
But take heart, because the front side looks like this:
It's easy looking back to see the connection, but when all you saw was the underside, did you have any idea what the design was intended to be?
When things get murky or uncertain, try to see the big picture.
It's okay to have no idea what you are doing right now. One day, you'll have it figured out. It might not be tomorrow, it might not be next week, it might not be in a year or two years. But one day, things will become clear.
In the meantime,