Ch-ch-ch-changes

(yes, the title is from David Bowie's song)

I have had quite the adventurous week.

My future has altered quite a bit from what I pictured it to be just a few days ago.

Firstly, I've realized that some of the things that used to be so important and the focal points of my life are no longer so. Other things have taken their place. At first these changes scared me. Was I just losing my drive? Or becoming lazy and no longer willing to go after what I want?

After careful pondering and writing it all out (my brain doesn't know what it's saying until I speak it or write it down), I have realized something.

Changes in what you want are normal.

You are under no obligation to stay in the cookie cutter you placed yourself in years ago.

Once I realized this and accepted that I am a different person than I was even a month ago, many of the worries and stresses I had been feeling faded away. I have hope and confidence in my future again, even though there are a lot of aspects of my future that just became very unclear.

This is what I'm doing now. I'm starting over. I'm reworking my graduation plan with a new major, I'm going after a new dream, and I'm navigating some uncharted territory regarding my health.

It's a lot, and it can be daunting at times.

Change can be scary.

But change is life.

Change is how we grow.

Change is how we move from who we are

 to who we want to be.

You have knowledge that you've accumulated over the years, and you were born with the gift of agency. You have all you need to make decisions for yourself. Once you have, pray about it. God will let you know if that choice isn't the right one. 

But ultimately, YOU are the one who has to choose.

 YOU are the one who decides what to do

with this life you've been given.

So here's what I'm doing with mine:

Pursuing a BA degree in Dance instead of in Dance Education

Writing a novel that will get published

Traveling anywhere I can to give Body Confidence Workshops

Staying at home with my family

Taking care of my body, even if that means taking it easy for a while

Trusting in God for all the things I don't yet understand (which is a lot)

Embrace change.

Have faith.

Have hope.

And go live the life you want.