Finding Piece

I promise I know how to spell. I've just been thinking about peace a lot lately and I've realized something that I thought I'd share.

First off, when I get stressed out, my insides feel like this:

Or I feel like this:

I feel undone, out of control, 

like I'm falling apart or on the brink of doing so.

Even on good days, when I feel put together, I'm still like a puzzle - I'm still in pieces. Though they are secure for now, there is always the possibility of them coming apart again.

You know what would be great?

If I was a one-piece puzzle.

If I accepted all the different parts of me as

ME.

If I could find true peace by keeping myself always in one piece.

I'm not saying that I want to jut be one thing, or that I don't want anything bad or stressful or difficult to come my way. But I do want that feeling of oneness, of connectivity, that feeling that despite the chaos going on around me, I am stable.

I want to be a mountain, not a pile of rocks.

Luckily, there is a way to find this peace.

Right now my fiancé is 1,126 miles away.

That sucks.

I'm so happy that he has this internship opportunity, but the whole in pieces thing is a bit harder to overcome now.

But, thankfully, I have a Heavenly Father who knows just how to give me peace.

I went to the temple with a dear friend yesterday, and the entire time I was there (and even now!) this is how I feel:

No scribbles, no puzzle pieces precariously put together, no unwinding or falling apart.

Just one peaceful piece.

Turn to the Lord for peace.

When things feel stressful or hard, ask for the Holy Ghost to bring you comfort. As the Comforter, He will be more than happy to do His job.